Nicky Gould

Nicky Gould is currently studying English & American Literature with Creative Writing at the University of Kent. She has always scribbled poetry, but has been writing it seriously now for about five years.

Her poems have appeared in various publications and in 2009 she was placed third in the Canterbury Festival Poet of the Year Competition. She is a member of WordAid, a Kent-based collective of poets dedicated to raising funds for charity (http://www.wordaid.org.uk/).

She works as a Youth Participation Officer, helping young people make a difference to their local communities. She lives near the sea in Whitstable, where she walks on the beach every day.

Love letters

I’m living with the space
you left behind, the hollow
pillow beside me and the silence
when I talk. The barrenness
of a bed where no skin touches
skin. I’m unravelling
after stitching my world to yours,
each day loosens the threads
holding me together.

Beneath our desk I find
your wooden box. Hidden
for years - I never knew
what you kept in it.

I hammer it. Smash it open.
Did you think I wouldn’t?

Was she so unimportant
that you’d forgotten
the smudged black kisses
she scrawled to you?
Or did you want
me to know
through all those years
I was never alone?